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02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. I'll tell you what celebrity you remind me of.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
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| Things are shit. I feel how I used to...
Honestly, I miss cutting...but of couresI wont do anything.. i hope. Things havnt gotten that bad yet.
I'm depressed and I hate it. I'm prob going to be going on more meds tomorrow. Possibly mood stabalizers. Hope they help... I'm also going to be seeing a theripist soon. HOpe that helps to. Not much to write. I've already vented on xanga... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Ok so I'm in school. Woohoo. I hate it. I hate geometry! agh haha ok well I havnt updated this site in forever. I have nothing better to do than sit here on LJ >_< ok im done aha | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Its been a while since I last updated. I'm really bored right now, home instead of in school because I dont have to take the exams today :-) Ryans coming over later today I cant wait :) lol I have to do chores nd shit today..how much fun haha and I think ima run later since I havnt done anything in days >_< I got my belli button pierced :) wee hehe my mommis bday present to me (sun was my bday)ok well ima go im to tired to write nd I think I'm guna go to sleep or something lol | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 08:11 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/angry.gif) frustrated |
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| | So much has happened over the past few weeks. I'm sick, only I dont know whats wrong with me. I'm sure its nothing but some people are alittle worried about... or one person is lol I was having abdominal pain morning of thanksgiving (4am-5am) but felt better after i went to sleep and woke up again. I ended up having them again last thursday. I found myself crying in 2nd hour after the teacher yelled at me for putting my head down during reading... the pain was so bad I couldnt stand straight or sit up straight even... I saw ryan after class and he told me to call my mom so I did. I went to herhouse felt better, felt worse.. got to the point where I sorta collapsed onto the floor while coming out of the bathroom (almost immediatly) and my mom called 911..that was fun... so I went to the hospital where they poked at me and pricked. what they thought it would be.. it isnt (according the all the tests that came back) so now idk. Ryan wants to make me an appt. so w/e if my mom makes me one I will go. But I seem sorta fine now, except for mon and tues I threw up both mornings. Tuesday night i stopped taking the anti biotic that my doctors had me on for no reason.and i've been fine since then pretty much.. so yea I think it was my anti-biotic that was causing the throwing up...yup I've been doing softball conditioning this past week. It's been fun, and hard. I'm sore all over. Grades are still down, woop te doo.. I'm way over my head with everything, stressed beyond max. My gram broke out into hives today (she thinks from stress) I dont blame her. I hate myself right now and have had moments where i said to myself I just want to die, for it all to end. But yeah...im havingmy emo moments and i'm ready to just throw this fuckin comp across the room..and i dont even know why I'm ajafojaskdfj aldfjal right now.. fuck it | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:28 am | | Current Mood: | its to early haha |
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| | If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | HIM-Wings of a Butterfly | | Time: | 09:04 am | | Current Mood: | annoyed but excited! |
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| Guess what today is? HIM! finally! I've been looking forward to this ever since Ryan suprised me with the tickets lol :-D I can't wait. 1. I get to see HIM! 2. I get to get out of this fucking house! and 3. I'm going with Ryan! so w00t for me :-D
Save me from this hell hole! My mom is driving me crazy! I can't wait for her to go home saturday. I mean.. I love her but after she told me FUCK YOU yesterday I've had enough. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Well I'm going to the mall nd then movies (movies at 7 to see corpses bride w00t) so I'm waiting for Ryan to take his shower and then leave - hopefully he'll either find us a ride or my gram gets home and will give me aride so i dont get rained on aha...
great now shits going on with my mom.. joyful... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | My baby | | Time: | 11:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/loved.gif) I love you |
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Me and my baby Ryan I made this for him today when I got back from spending the entire afternoon with him :-D I've spent everyday with him now for... wow idk Friday he came over to my mom sat he slept over sunday I went to shis house and mon he came here today I went back to his house hehe sooo tom he'll prob come here to my house ahaha :-D idk anywho
I love you Ryan! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | sex toys.... | | Time: | 09:27 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/devious.gif) horny |
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| HELLO
itz me ryan =)
i just felt like comin on caris lj since shes meesin wit mine and puttin girl crap for my background.
*scene from the exercist*
FUCK ME FUCK ME FUCK ME
hahaha oo man thats great, woot yes. i do love that part..=) | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:18 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/happy.gif) happy |
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| I am seriously the happiest person alive right now :-)
Ryan just called me saying he's coming over. That his mom woke him up telling him he's going to my house. "=) YAY! I get to see himtoday! :-)
I love you Ryan so much ♥ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| "Its all in the buttocks, dont I look pretty."
"it takes a very secure man to walk like that"
"I'm glidding here" Hits the taxy cab!
Happy thoughts... happy entrys
"Gracy Lu Freebush?"
"Yea since you like that name so much"
"yeah well my IQ just dropped 10 points" >_<
FIESTA!!
"how about a little song? You know the one I mean
From see to shining sea she rains over all she sees shes beauty and shes grace shes miss united states!"
"Those better be candy dishes"
oh no! Slime attacks from Danielle and RYan! haha | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | im sick of drama and the shit going on right now. I'm sick of trying to fucking please people. Fuck you fuck everything... i dont care anymore.. igive up | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 03:21 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sad.gif) depressed |
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| Danielle and I have Ryan cuffed to my bed ahaha omg this is funny. Danielle is freaking out. She loves it ahaha >_<
ok well i'll update later when I have time to let things out about my not so good day... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:39 pm | | Current Mood: | I love you marco! |
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Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.
- Scotty Wright - | | comments: Leave a comment |
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